That's it! 31 days. 31 topics. 31 times I hit "Publish" on my compose page.
31 posts.
Some were great. Some were not-so-great. But they are all there.
This whole month of May saw more writing than I have done in a long, long time. And in the course of all that writing, I made a lot of realizations and discoveries about myself and what I am doing than I have in the last several years of pondering and journaling and reflecting.
First off, I did the one thing that I had most hoped to do through this challenge - I turned on the faucet. The more time I spend writing, the easier it is for the words to come to me. That flow has been missing for a while now, due to all of my inconsistency. It's back. And I love that feeling of sitting at the keyboard and have things just COME OUT. If I were a runner, I would imagine this is what a "runner's high" feels like. The "Writer's High." It's amazing.
A side-effect of my endless blogging was a head-first dive back into social media. Blogging and social media really do go hand-in-hand. After all, there's no point publishing all of these thoughts, pictures and memories out into the world if nobody but your mom (Hi, Mom!) is reading it. Bloggers blog in the hopes that somebody out there will take notice of what they do. And after they take notice, they'll come back and read more. But social media can be a time-suck and a life-suck. I dove in, and then I burned out, and that's fine. It's all part of the process. I will continue twittering and pinning and graming and plusing, but I will have to put time limits on these activities. Online life is fun, but I prefer living in my real-world life with my real-life family.
I overcame many of the fears that had been plaguing me and my writing for so long. My perfectionist tendencies (I posted without photos, for crimeny sake. More than once!!) and the fear that if I write about all of my "good ideas," I won't have any good stuff left. But that's what's so amazing about turning on that faucet - it's not just the words that flow, when the tap is off, ideas are still dripping out.
The only fear I have now is that I have reached the end. Now that my challenge is over, my focus has to be shared with more than just what the post for today will be, I have a fear that I will return to my old, inconsistent habits. That our upcoming month of summer vacation will undo all of the work I've done, or when things get hectic during the Christmas season, or next year when it is time to pack up and move our whole lives either back to The States or another new country, my faucet will dry up. This is not a fear that is at the forefront of my mind, though. Just a little shadow of a thing in the back of my thoughts.
For now, I am proud and even exuberant that I gave myself a goal and I succeeded in making that goal a reality. It's something that I hadn't done in a long, long time. And my plan is to keep at it for as long as the words will continue to come to me. I still have quite a lot of work to do in the realm of time management, but my new goal is to keep this blog active AND spend time with my family. I am determined.
And when I'm determined, it's pretty neat to see what I can accomplish!